第 43 节
作者:击水三千      更新:2022-07-08 12:27      字数:9322
  ave a bitter laugh and went on; with the same strange; serious air of explaining his plan。  〃She despises me; she hates me; she cares no more for me than for the button on her glove by which I mean that she does n't care a hundredth part as much。 You may say that it serves me right; and that I have got what I deserve。  I married her because she was silly。 I wanted a silly wife; I had an idea you were too wise。 Oh; yes; that 's what I thought of you!  Blanche knew why I picked her out; and undertook to supply the article required。 Heaven forgive her!  She has certainly kept her engagement。 But you can imagine how it must have made her like me knowing why I picked her out!  She has disappointed me all the same。  I thought she had a heart; but that was a mistake。 It does n't matter; though; because everything is over between us。〃
  〃What do you mean; everything is over?〃  Bernard demanded。
  〃Everything will be over in a few weeks。  Then I can speak to Miss Vivian seriously。〃
  〃Ah!  I am glad to hear this is not serious;〃 said Bernard。
  〃Miss Vivian; wait a few weeks;〃 Gordon went on。  〃Give me another chance then。  Then it will be perfectly right; I shall be free。〃
  〃You speak as if you were going to put an end to your wife!〃
  〃She is rapidly putting an end to herself。  She means to leave me。〃
  〃Poor; unhappy man; do you know what you are saying?〃 Angela murmured。
  〃Perfectly。  I came here to say it。  She means to leave me; and I mean to offer her every facility。  She is dying to take a lover; and she has got an excellent one waiting for her。 Bernard knows whom I mean; I don't know whether you do。 She was ready to take one three months after our marriage。 It is really very good of her to have waited all this time; but I don't think she can go more than a week or two longer。 She is recommended a southern climate; and I am pretty sure that in the course of another ten days I may count upon their starting together for the shores of the Mediterranean。 The shores of the Mediterranean; you know; are lovely; and I hope they will do her a world of good。  As soon as they have left Paris I will let you know; and then you will of course admit that; virtually; I am free。〃
  〃I don't understand you。〃
  〃I suppose you are aware;〃 said Gordon; 〃that we have the advantage of being natives of a country in which marriages may be legally dissolved。〃
  Angela stared; then; softly
  〃Are you speaking of a divorce?〃
  〃I believe that is what they call it;〃 Gordon answered; gazing back at her with his densely clouded blue eyes。 〃The lawyers do it for you; and if she goes away with Lovelock; nothing will be more simple than for me to have it arranged。〃
  Angela stared; I say; and Bernard was staring; too。  Then the latter; turning away; broke out into a tremendous; irrepressible laugh。
  Gordon looked at him a moment; then he said to Angela; with a deeper tremor in his voice
  〃He was my dearest friend。〃
  〃I never felt more devoted to you than at this moment!〃 Bernard declared; smiling still。
  Gordon had fixed his sombre eyes upon the girl again。
  〃Do you understand me now?〃
  Angela looked back at him for some instants。
  〃Yes;〃 she murmured at last。
  〃And will you wait; and give me another chance?〃
  〃Yes;〃 she said; in the same tone。
  Bernard uttered a quick exclamation; but Angela checked him with a glance; and Gordon looked from one of them to the other。
  〃Can I trust you?〃  Gordon asked。
  〃I will make you happy;〃 said Angela。
  Bernard wondered what under the sun she meant; but he thought he might safely add
  〃I will abide by her choice。〃
  Gordon actually began to smile。
  〃It won't be long; I think; two or three weeks。〃
  Angela made no answer to this; she fixed her eyes on the floor。
  〃I shall see Blanche as often as possible;〃 she presently said。
  〃By all means!  The more you see her the better you will understand me。 〃
  〃I understand you very well now。  But you have shaken me very much; and you must leave me。  I shall see you alsooften。〃
  Gordon took up his hat and stick; he saw that Bernard did not do the same。
  〃And Bernard?〃 he exclaimed。
  〃I shall ask him to leave Paris;〃 said Angela。
  〃Will you go?〃
  〃I will do what Angela requests;〃 said Bernard。
  〃You have heard what she requests; it 's for you to come now。〃
  〃Ah; you must at least allow me to take leave!〃 cried Bernard。
  Gordon went to the door; and when he had opened it he stood for a while; holding it and looking at his companions。  Then
  〃I assure you she won't be long!〃 he said to Angela; and rapidly passed out。
  The others stood silent till they heard the outer door of the apartment close behind him。
  〃And now please to elucidate!〃 said Bernard; folding his arms。
  Angela gave no answer for some moments; then she turned upon him a smile which appeared incongruous; but which her words presently helped to explain。
  〃He is intensely in love with his wife!〃
  CHAPTER XXIX
  This statement was very effective; but it might well have seemed at first to do more credit to her satiric powers than to her faculty of observation。  This was the light in which it presented itself to Bernard; but; little by little; as she amplified the text; he grew to think well of it; and at last he was quite ready to place it; as a triumph of sagacity; on a level with that other discovery which she had made the evening before and with regard to which his especial errand to…day had been to congratulate her afresh。 It brought him; however; less satisfaction than it appeared to bring to his clever companion; for; as he observed plausibly enough; Gordon was quite out of his head; and; this being the case; of what importance was the secret of his heart?
  〃The secret of his heart and the condition of his head are one and the same thing;〃 said Angela。  〃He is turned upside down by the wretchedly false position that he has got into with his wife。 She has treated him badly; but he has treated her wrongly。 They are in love with each other; and yet they both do nothing but hide it。  He is not in the least in love with poor me not to…day any more than he was three years ago。 He thinks he is; because he is full of sorrow and bitterness; and because the news of our engagement has given him a shock。 But that 's only a pretexta chance to pour out the grief and pain which have been accumulating in his heart under a sense of his estrangement from Blanche。  He is too proud to attribute his feelings to that cause; even to himself; but he wanted to cry out and say he was hurt; to demand justice for a wrong; and the revelation of the state of things between you and me which of course strikes him as incongruous; we must allow largely for thatcame to him as a sudden opportunity。 No; no;〃 the girl went on; with a generous ardor in her face; following further the train of her argument; which she appeared to find extremely attractive; 〃I know what you are going to say and I deny it。  I am not fanciful; or sophistical; or irrational; and I know perfectly what I am about。  Men are so stupid; it 's only women that have real discernment。  Leave me alone; and I shall do something。  Blanche is silly; yes; very silly; but she is not so bad as her husband accused her of being; in those dreadful words which he will live to repent of。 She is wise enough to care for him; greatly; at bottom; and to feel her little heart filled with rage and shame that he does n't appear to care for her。  If he would take her a little more seriouslyit 's an immense pity he married her because she was silly!she would be flattered by it; and she would try and deserve it。  No; no; no! she does n't; in reality; care a straw for Captain Lovelock; I assure you; I promise you she does n't。 A woman can tell。  She is in danger; possibly; and if her present situation; as regards her husband; lasts; she might do something as horrid as he said。 But she would do it out of spitenot out of affection for the Captain; who must be got immediately out of the way。 She only keeps him to torment her husband and make Gordon come back to her。  She would drop him forever to…morrow。〃 Angela paused a moment; reflecting; with a kindled eye。  〃And she shall!〃
  Bernard looked incredulous。
  〃How will that be; Miss Solomon?〃
  〃You shall see when you come back。〃
  〃When I come back?  Pray; where am I going?〃
  〃You will leave Paris for a fortnightas I promised our poor friend。〃
  Bernard gave an irate laugh。
  〃My dear girl; you are ridiculous!  Your promising it was almost as childish as his asking it。〃
  〃To play with a child you must be childish。  Just see the effect of this abominable passion of love; which you have been crying up to me so! By its operation Gordon Wright; the most sensible man of our acquaintance; is reduced to the level of infancy!  If you will only go away; I will manage him。〃
  〃You certainly manage me!  Pray; where shall I go?〃
  〃Wherever you choose。  I will write to you every day。〃
  〃That will be an inducement;〃 said Bernard。  〃You know I have never received a letter from you。〃
  〃I write the most delightful ones!〃  Angela exclaimed; and she succeeded in making him promise to start that night for London。
  She had just done so when Mrs。 Vivian presented herself; and the good l