第 39 节
作者:击水三千      更新:2022-07-08 12:27      字数:9322
  For some time Angela said nothing; then at last she gave him one of the deeply serious looks with which her face was occasionally ornamented。
  〃If you want really to know; thencan't you see that your remorse seemed to me connected in a certain way with your affection; a sort of guarantee of it? You thought you had injured some one or other; and that seemed to be mixed up with your loving me; and therefore I let it alone。〃
  〃Ah;〃 said Bernard; 〃my remorse is all gone; and yet I think I love you about as much as ever!  So you see how wrong you were not to tell me。〃
  〃The wrong to you I don't care about。  It is very true I might have told you for Mr。 Wright's sake。  It would perhaps have made him look better。 But as you never attacked him for deserting me; it seemed needless for me to defend him。〃
  〃I confess;〃 said Bernard; 〃I am quite at sea about Gordon's look in the matter。  Is he looking better nowor is he looking worse?  You put it very well just now; I was attending to you; though you said I was not。 If he hoped you would refuse him; with whom is his quarrel at present? And why was he so cool to me for months after we parted at Baden? If that was his state of mind; why should he accuse me of inconsistency?〃
  〃There is something in it; after all; that a woman can understand。 I don't know whether a man can。  He hoped I would refuse him; and yet when I had done so he was vexed。  After a while his vexation subsided; and he married poor Blanche; but; on learning to…day that I had accepted you; it flickered up again。  I suppose that was natural enough; but it won't be serious。〃
  〃What will not be serious; my dear?〃 asked Mrs。 Vivian; who had come back to the drawing…room; and who; apparently; could not hear that the attribute in question was wanting in any direction; without some alarm。
  〃Shall I tell mamma; Bernard?〃 said Angela。
  〃Ah; my dear child; I hope it 's nothing that threatens your mutual happiness;〃 mamma murmured; with gentle earnestness。
  〃Does it threaten our mutual happiness; Bernard?〃 the girl went on; smiling。
  〃Let Mrs。 Vivian decide whether we ought to let it make us miserable;〃 said Bernard。  〃Dear Mrs。 Vivian; you are a casuist; and this is a nice case。〃
  〃Is it anything about poor Mr。 Wright?〃 the elder lady inquired。
  〃Why do you say 'poor' Mr。 Wright?〃 asked Bernard。
  〃Because I am sadly afraid he is not happy with Blanche。〃
  〃How did you discover thatwithout seeing them together?〃
  〃Well; perhaps you will think me very fanciful;〃 said Mrs。 Vivian; 〃but it was by the way he looked at Angela。  He has such an expressive face。〃
  〃He looked at me very kindly; mamma;〃 Angela observed。
  〃He regularly stared; my daughter。  In any one else I should have said it was rude。  But his situation is so peculiar; and one could see that he admired you still。〃  And Mrs。 Vivian gave a little soft sigh。
  〃Ah! she is thinking of the thirty thousand a year;〃 Bernard said to himself。
  〃I am sure I hope he admires me still;〃 the girl cried; laughing。 〃There is no great harm in that。〃
  〃He was comparing you with Blancheand he was struck with the contrast。〃
  〃It could n't have been in my favor。  If it 's a question of being looked at; Blanche bears it better than I。〃
  〃Poor little Blanche!〃 murmured Mrs。 Vivian; sweetly。
  〃Why did you tell me he was so happy with her?〃  Angela asked; turning to Bernard; abruptly。
  Bernard gazed at her a moment; with his eyebrows raised。
  〃I never saw any one ask such sudden questions!〃 he exclaimed。
  〃You can answer me at your leisure;〃 she rejoined; turning away。
  〃It was because I adored you。〃
  〃You would n't say that at your leisure;〃 said the girl。
  Mrs。 Vivian stood watching them。
  〃You; who are so happy together; you ought to think kindly of others who are less fortunate。〃
  〃That is very true; Mrs。 Vivian; and I have never thought of any one so kindly as I have of Gordon for the last year。〃
  Angela turned round again。
  〃Is Blanche so very bad; then?〃
  〃You will see for yourself!〃
  〃Ah; no;〃 said Mrs。 Vivian; 〃she is not bad; she is only very light。 I am so glad she is to be near us again。  I think a great deal can be done by association。  We must help her; Angela。  I think we helped her before。〃
  〃It is also very true that she is light; Mrs。 Vivian;〃 Bernard observed; 〃and if you could make her a little heavier; I should be tremendously grateful。〃
  Bernard's prospective mother…in…law looked at him a little。
  〃I don't know whether you are laughing at meI always think you are。 But I shall not give up Blanche for that。  I never give up any one that I have once tried to help。  Blanche will come back to me。〃
  Mrs。 Vivian had hardly spoken when the sharp little vibration of her door…bell was heard in the hall。  Bernard stood for a moment looking at the door of the drawing…room。
  〃It is poor Gordon come to make a scene!〃 he announced。
  〃Is that what you meanthat he opposed your marriage?〃 asked Mrs。 Vivian; with a frightened air。
  〃I don't know what he proposes to do with Blanche;〃 said Bernard; laughing。
  There were voices in the hall。  Angela had been listening。
  〃You say she will come back to you; mamma;〃 she exclaimed。 〃Here she is arrived!〃
  CHAPTER XXVII
  At the same moment the door was thrown open; and Mrs。 Gordon appeared on the threshold with a gentleman behind her。 Blanche stood an instant looking into the lighted room and hesitating flushed a little; smiling; extremely pretty。
  〃May I come in?〃 she said; 〃and may I bring in Captain Lovelock?〃
  The two ladies; of course; fluttering toward her with every demonstration of hospitality; drew her into the room; while Bernard proceeded to greet the Captain; who advanced with a certain awkward and bashful majesty; almost sweeping with his great stature Mrs。 Vivian's humble ceiling。 There was a tender exchange of embraces between Blanche and her friends; and the charming visitor; losing no time; began to chatter with her usual volubility。  Mrs。 Vivian and Angela made her companion graciously welcome; but Blanche begged they would n't mind himshe had only brought him as a watch…dog。
  〃His place is on the rug;〃 she said。  〃Captain Lovelock; go and lie down on the rug。〃
  〃Upon my soul; there is nothing else but rugs in these French places!〃 the Captain rejoined; looking round Mrs。 Vivian's salon。  〃Which rug do you mean?〃
  Mrs。 Vivian had remarked to Blanche that it was very kind of her to come first; and Blanche declared that she could not have laid her head on her pillow before she had seen her dear Mrs。 Vivian。
  〃Do you suppose I would wait because I am married?〃 she inquired; with a keen little smile in her charming eyes。 〃I am not so much married as that; I can tell you!  Do you think I look much as if I were married; with no one to bring me here to…night but Captain Lovelock?〃
  〃I am sure Captain Lovelock is a very gallant escort;〃 said Mrs。 Vivian。
  〃Oh; he was not afraidthat is; he was not afraid of the journey; though it lay all through those dreadful wild Champs Elysees。 But when we arrived; he was afraid to come into come up here。 Captain Lovelock is so modest; you knowin spite of all the success he had in America。  He will tell you about the success he had in America; it quite makes up for the defeat of the British army in the Revolution。 They were defeated in the Revolution; the British; were n't they? I always told him so; but he insists they were not。  'How do we come to be free; then?'  I always ask him; 'I suppose you admit that we are free。'  Then he becomes personal and says that I am free enough; certainly。  But it 's the general fact I mean; I wish you would tell him about the general fact。  I think he would believe you; because he knows you know a great deal about history and all that。 I don't mean this evening; but some time when it is convenient。 He did n't want to come inhe wanted to stay in the carriage and smoke a cigar; he thought you would n't like it; his coming with me the first time。  But I told him he need n't mind that; for I would certainly explain。  I would be very careful to let you know that I brought him only as a substitute。  A substitute for whom? A substitute for my husband; of course。  My dear Mrs。 Vivian; of course I ought to bring you some pretty message from Gordon that he is dying to come and see you; only that he had nineteen letters to write and that he could n't possibly stir from his fireside。 I suppose a good wife ought to invent excuses for her husband ought to throw herself into the breach; is n't that what they call it? But I am afraid I am not a good wife。  Do you think I am a good wife; Mr。 Longueville?  You once stayed three months with us; and you had a chance to see。  I don't ask you that seriously; because you never tell the truth。  I always do; so I will say I am not a good wife。 And then the breach is too big; and I am too little。  Oh; I am too little; Mrs。 Vivian; I know I am too little。  I am the smallest woman living; Gordon can scarcely see me with a microscope; and I believe he has the most powerful one in America。  He is going to get another here; that is one of the things he came abroad for; perhaps it will do better。  I do tell the truth; don't I; Mrs。 Vivian? I have th