第 52 节
作者:人生几何      更新:2022-07-08 12:26      字数:9318
  went as secretly as I had come; and the tomb of the Divine Rameses
  knew me no more。 And with me I took all the treasures of my father;
  Amenemhat; for I was not minded to go to Alexandria empty…handed and
  as a suppliant; but rather as a man of much wealth and condition。 Now;
  as I went; I learned that Antony; following Cleopatra; had; indeed;
  fled from Actium; and knew that the end drew nigh。 For this and many
  other things had I foreseen in the darkness of the tomb of Tápé; and
  planned to bring about。
  Thus; then; I came to Alexandria; and entered into a house which had
  been made ready for me at the palace gates。
  And that very night Charmion came to meCharmion whom I had not seen
  for nine long years。
  CHAPTER IV
  OF THE MEETING OF CHARMION WITH THE LEARNED OLYMPUS; OF HER
  SPEECH WITH HIM; OF THE COMING OF OLYMPUS INTO THE
  PRESENCE OF CLEOPATRA; AND OF THE COMMANDS OF CLEOPATRA。
  Clad in my plain black robe; I sat in the guest…chamber of the house
  that had been made ready for me。 I sat in a carven lion…footed chair;
  and looked upon the swinging lamps of scented oil; the pictured
  tapestries; the rich Syrian rugsand; amidst all this luxury;
  bethought me of that tomb of the Harpers which is at Tápé; and of the
  nine long years of dark loneliness and preparation。 I sat; and
  crouched upon a rug near to the door; lay the aged Atoua。 Her hair was
  white as snow; and shrivelled with age was the wrinkled countenance of
  the woman who; when all deserted me; had yet clung to me; in her great
  love forgetting my great sins。 Nine years! nine long years! and now;
  once again; I set my foot in Alexandria! Once again in the appointed
  circle of things I came forth from the solitude of preparation to be a
  fate to Cleopatra; and this second time I came not forth to fail。
  And yet how changed the circumstance! I was out of the story: my part
  now was but the part of the sword in the hands of Justice; I might no
  more hope to make Egypt free and great and sit upon my lawful throne。
  Khem was lost; and lost was I; Harmachis。 In the rush and turmoil of
  events; the great plot of which I had been the pivot was covered up
  and forgotten; scarce a memory of it remained。 The curtain of dark
  night was closing in upon the history of my ancient Race; its very
  Gods were tottering to their fall; I could already; in the spirit;
  hear the shriek of the Roman eagles as they flapped their wings above
  the furthest banks of Sihor。
  Presently I roused myself and bade Atoua go seek a mirror and bring it
  to me; that I might look therein。
  And I saw this: a face shrunken and pallid; on which no smile came;
  great eyes grown wan with gazing into darkness looking out beneath the
  shaven head; emptily; as the hollow eye…pits of a skull; a wizened
  halting form wasted by abstinence; sorrow; and prayer; a long wild
  beard of iron grey; thin blue…veined hands that ever trembled like a
  leaf; bowed shoulders and lessened limbs。 Time and grief had done
  their work indeed; scarce could I think myself the same as when; the
  royal Harmachisin all the splendour of my strength and youthful
  beautyI first had looked upon the woman's loveliness that did
  destroy me。 And yet within me burned the same fire as of yore; yet I
  was not changed; for time and grief have no power to alter the
  immortal spirit of man。 Seasons may come and go; Hope; like a bird;
  may fly away; Passion may break its wings against the iron bars of
  Fate; Illusions may crumble as the cloudy towers of sunset flame;
  Faith; as running water; may slip from beneath our feet; Solitude may
  stretch itself around us like the measureless desert sand; Old Age may
  creep as the gathering night over our bowed heads grown hoary in their
  shameyea; bound to Fortune's wheel; we may taste of every turn of
  chancenow rule as Kings; now serve as Slaves; now love; now hate;
  now prosper; and now perish。 But still; through all; we are the same;
  for this is the marvel of Identity。
  And as I sat and thought these things in bitterness of heart; there
  came a knocking at the door。
  〃Open; Atoua!〃 I said。
  She rose and did my bidding; and a woman entered; clad in Grecian
  robes。 It was Charmion; still beautiful as of old; but sad faced now
  and very sweet to see; with a patient fire slumbering in her downcast
  eyes。
  She entered unattended; and; speaking no word; the old wife pointed to
  where I sat; and went。
  〃Old man;〃 she said; addressing me; 〃lead me to the learned Olympus。 I
  come upon the Queen's business。〃
  I rose; and; lifting my head; looked upon her。
  She gazed; and gave a little cry。
  〃Surely;〃 she whispered; glancing round; 〃surely thou art not
  that〃 And she paused。
  〃That Harmachis whom once thy foolish heart did love; O Charmion? Yes;
  I am he and what thou seest; most fair lady。 Yet is Harmachis dead
  whom thou didst love; but Olympus; the skilled Egyptian; waits upon
  thy words!〃
  〃Cease!〃 she said; 〃and of the past but one word; and thenwhy; let
  it lie。 Not well; with all thy wisdom; canst thou know a true woman's
  heart; if thou dost believe; Harmachis; that it can change with the
  changes of the outer form; for then assuredly could no love follow its
  beloved to that last place of changethe Grave。 Know thou; learned
  Physician; I am of that sort who; loving once; love always; and being
  not beloved again; go virgin to the death。〃
  She ceased; and having naught to say; I bowed my head in answer。 Yet
  though I said nothing and though this woman's passionate folly had
  been the cause of all our ruin; to speak truth; in secret I was
  thankful to her who; wooed of all and living in this shameless Court;
  had still through the long years poured out her unreturned love upon
  an outcast; and who; when that poor broken slave of Fortune came back
  in such unlovely guise; held him yet dear at heart。 For what man is
  there who does not prize that gift most rare and beautiful; that one
  perfect thing which no gold can buya woman's unfeigned love?
  〃I thank thee that thou dost not answer;〃 she said; 〃for the bitter
  words which thou didst pour upon me in those days that long are dead;
  and far away in Tarsus; have not lost their poisonous sting; and in my
  heart is no more place for the arrows of thy scorn; new venomed
  through thy solitary years。 So let it be。 Behold! I put it from me;
  that wild passion of my soul;〃 and she looked up and stretched out her
  hands as though to press some unseen presence back; 〃I put it from me
  though forget it I may not! There; 'tis done; Harmachis; no more
  shall my love trouble thee。 Enough for me that once more my eyes
  behold thee; before sleep seals thee from their sight。 Dost remember
  how; when I would have died by thy dear hand; thou wouldst not slay;
  but didst bid me live to pluck the bitter fruit of crime; and be
  accursed by visions of the evil I had wrought and memories of thee
  whom I have ruined?〃
  〃Ay; Charmion; I remember well。〃
  〃Surely the cup of punishment has been filled。 Oh! couldst thou see
  into the record of my heart; and read in it the suffering that I have
  borneborne with a smiling facethy justice would be satisfied
  indeed!〃
  〃And yet; if report be true; Charmion; thou art the first of all the
  Court; and therein the most powerful and beloved。 Does not Octavianus
  give it out that he makes war; not on Antony; nor even on his
  mistress; Cleopatra; but on Charmion and Iras?〃
  〃Yes; Harmachis; and think that it has been to me thus; because of my
  oath to thee; to be forced to eat the bread and do the tasks of one
  whom so bitterly I hate!one who robbed me of thee; and who; through
  the workings of my jealousy; brought me to be that which I am; brought
  thee to shame; and all Egypt to its ruin! Can jewels and riches and
  the flattery of princes and nobles bring happiness to such a one as I;
  who am more wretched than the meanest scullion wench? Oh; I have often
  wept till I was blind; and then; when the hour came; I must arise and
  tire me; and; with a smile; go do the bidding of the Queen and that
  heavy Antony。 May the Gods grant me to see them deaday; the twain of
  them!then myself I shall be content to die! Thy lot has been hard;
  Harmachis; but at least thou have been free; and many is the time that
  I have envied thee the quiet of thy haunted cave。〃
  〃I do perceive; O Charmion; that thou art mindful of thy oaths; and
  it is well; for the hour of vengeance is at hand。〃
  〃I am mindful; and in all things I have worked for thee in secretfor
  thee; and for the utter ruin of Cleopatra and the Roman。 I have fanned
  his passion and her jealousy; I have egged her on to wickedness and
  him to folly; and of all have I caused report to be brought to C?sar。
  Listen! thus stands the matter。 Thou knowest how went the fight at
  Actium。 Thither went Cleopatra with her fleet; sorely against the will
  of Antony。 But; as thou sentest me word; I entreated him for the