第 45 节
作者:人生几何      更新:2022-07-08 12:26      字数:9322
  and thine alone!〃
  Then Charmion took me by the hand and drew me thence。
  〃Hast seen enough?〃 she asked; when we were once more within the
  chamber and the lamp was lit。
  〃Yea;〃 I answered; 〃my eyes are opened。〃
  CHAPTER XVI
  OF THE PLAN OF CHARMION; OF THE CONFESSION OF CHARMION; AND
  OF THE ANSWER OF HARMACHIS
  For some while I sat with bowed head; and the last bitterness of shame
  sank into my soul。 This; then; was the end。 For this I had betrayed my
  oaths; for this I had told the secret of the pyramid; for this I had
  lost my Crown; my Honour; and; perchance; my hope of Heaven! Could
  there be another man in the wide world so steeped in sorrow as I was
  that night? Surely not one! Where should I turn? What could I do? And
  even through the tempest of my torn heart the bitter voice of jealousy
  called aloud。 For I loved this woman; to whom I had given all; and she
  at this momentshe was Ah! I could not bear to think of it; and
  in my utter agony; my heart burst in a river of tears such as are
  terrible to weep!
  Then Charmion drew near me; and I saw that she; too; was weeping。
  〃Weep not; Harmachis!〃 she sobbed; kneeling at my side。 〃I cannot
  endure to see thee weep。 Oh! why wouldst thou not be warned? Then
  hadst thou been great and happy; and not as now。 Listen; Harmachis!
  Thou didst hear what that false and tigerish woman saidto…morrow she
  hands thee over to the murderers!〃
  〃It is well;〃 I gasped。
  〃Nay: it is not well。 Harmachis; give her not this last triumph over
  thee。 Thou hast lost all save life: but while life remains; hope
  remains also; and with hope the chance of vengeance。〃
  〃Ah!〃 I said; starting from my seat。 〃I had not thought of that。 Ay
  the chance of vengeance! It would be sweet to be avenged!〃
  〃It would be sweet; Harmachis; and yet thisVengeance is an arrow
  that in falling oft pierces him who shot it。 MyselfI know it;〃 and
  she sighed。 〃But a truce to talk and grief。 There will be time for us
  twain to grieve; if not to talk; in all the heavy coming years。 Thou
  must flybefore the coming of the light must thou fly。 Here is a
  plan。 To…morrow; ere the dawn; a galley that but yesterday came from
  Alexandria; bearing fruit and stores; sails thither again; and its
  captain is known to me; but to thee he is not known。 Now; I will find
  thee the garb of a Syrian merchant; and cloak thee; as I know how; and
  furnish thee with a letter to the captain of the galley。 He shall give
  thee passage to Alexandria; for to him thou wilt seem but as a
  merchant going on the business of thy trade。 Brennus is officer of the
  guard to…night; and Brennus is a friend to me and thee。 Perhaps he
  will guess somewhat; or; perhaps; he will not guess; at the least; the
  Syrian merchant shall safely pass the lines。 What sayest thou?〃
  〃It is well;〃 I answered wearily; 〃little do I reck the issue。〃
  〃Rest thou; then; here; Harmachis; while I make these matters ready;
  and; Harmachis; grieve not overmuch; there are others who should
  grieve more heavily than thou。〃 And she went; leaving me alone with my
  agony which rent me like a torture…bed。 Had it not been for that
  fierce desire of vengeance which from time to time flashed across my
  tormented mind as the lightning over a midnight sea; methinks my
  reason had left me in that dark hour。 At length I heard her footstep
  at the door; and she entered; breathing heavily; for she bore a sack
  of clothing in her arms。
  〃It is well;〃 she said: 〃here is the garb with spare linen; and
  writing…tablets; and all things needful。 I have seen Brennus also; and
  told him that a Syrian merchant would pass the guard an hour before
  the dawn。 And though he made pretence of sleep; I think he understood;
  for he answered; yawning; that if they but had the pass…word;
  'Antony;' fifty Syrian merchants might go through about their lawful
  business。 And here is the letter to the captainthou canst not
  mistake the galley; for she is moored along to the righta small
  galley; painted black; as thou dost enter on the great quay; and;
  moreover; the sailors make ready for sailing。 Now I will wait here
  without; while thou dost put off the livery of thy service and array
  thyself。〃
  When she was gone I tore off my gorgeous garments and spat upon them
  and trod them on the ground。 Then I put on the modest robe of a
  merchant; and bound the tablets round me; on my feet the sandals of
  untanned hide; and at my waist the knife。 When it was done Charmion
  entered once again and looked on me。
  〃Too much art thou still the royal Harmachis;〃 she said; 〃see; it must
  be changed。〃
  Then she took scissors from her tiring…table; and; bidding me be
  seated; she cut off my locks; clipping the hair close to the head。
  Next she found stains of such sort as women use to make dark the eyes;
  and mixed them cunningly; rubbing the stuff on my face and hands and
  on the white mark in my hair where the sword of Brennus had bitten to
  the bone。
  〃Now thou art changedsomewhat for the worse; Harmachis;〃 she said;
  with a dreary laugh; 〃scarce myself should I know thee。 Stay; there is
  one more thing;〃 and; going to a chest of garments; she drew thence a
  heavy bag of gold。
  〃Take thou this;〃 she said; 〃thou wilt have need of money。〃
  〃I cannot take thy gold; Charmion。〃
  〃Yes; take it。 It was Sepa who gave it to me for the furtherance of
  our cause; and therefore it is fitting that thou shouldst spend it。
  Moreover; if I want money; doubtless Antony; who is henceforth my
  master; will give me more; he is much beholden to me; and this he
  knows well。 There; waste not the precious time in haggling o'er the
  pelfnot yet art thou all a merchant; Harmachis;〃 and; without more
  words; she thrust the pieces into the leather bag that hung across my
  shoulders。 Then she made fast the sack containing the spare garments;
  and; so womanly thoughtful was she; placed in it an alabaster jar of
  pigment; with which I might stain my countenance afresh; and; taking
  the broidered robes of my office that I had cast off; hid them in the
  secret passage。 And so at last all was made ready。
  〃Is it time that I should go;〃 I asked。
  〃Not yet a while。 Be patient; Harmachis; for but one little hour more
  must thou endure my presence; and then; perchance; farewell for ever。〃
  I made a gesture signifying that this was no time for sharp words。
  〃Forgive me my quick tongue;〃 she said; 〃but from a salt spring bitter
  waters well。 Be seated; Harmachis; I have heavier words to speak to
  thee before thou goest。〃
  〃Say on;〃 I answered; 〃words; however heavy; can move me no more。〃
  She stood before me with folded hands; and the lamp…light shone upon
  her beauteous face。 I noticed idly how great was its pallor and how
  wide and dark were the rings about the deep black eyes。 Twice she
  lifted her white face and strove to speak; twice her voice failed her;
  and when at last it came it was in a hoarse whisper。
  〃I cannot let thee go;〃 she said〃I cannot let thee go unwitting of
  the truth。
  〃/Harmachis; 'twas I who did betray thee!/〃
  I sprang to my feet; an oath upon my lips; but she caught me by the
  hand。
  〃Oh; be seated;〃 she said〃be seated and hear me; then; when thou
  hast heart; do to me as thou wilt。 Listen。 From that evil moment when;
  in the presence of thy uncle Sepa; for the second time I set eyes upon
  thy face; I loved theehow much; thou canst little guess。 Think upon
  thine own love for Cleopatra; and double it; and double it again; and
  perchance thou mayst come near to my love's mighty sum。 I loved thee;
  day by day I loved thee more; till in thee and for thee alone I seemed
  to live。 But thou wast coldthou wast worse than cold! thou didst
  deal with me not as a breathing woman; but rather as the instrument to
  an endas a tool with which to grave thy fortunes。 And then I saw
  yes; long before thou knewest it thyselfthy heart's tide was setting
  strong towards that ruinous shore whereon to…day thy life is broken。
  And at last that night came; that dreadful night when; hid within the
  chamber; I saw thee cast my kerchief to the winds; and with sweet
  words cherish my royal Rival's gift。 Thenoh; thou knowestin my
  pain I betrayed the secret that thou wouldst not see; and thou didst
  make a mock of me; Harmachis! Oh! the shame of itthou in thy
  foolishness didst make a mock of me! I went thence; and within me were
  rising all the torments which can tear a woman's heart; for now I was
  sure that thou didst love Cleopatra! Ay; and so mad was I; even that
  night I was minded to betray thee: but I thoughtnot yet; not yet;
  to…morrow he may soften。 Then came the morrow; and all was ready for
  the bursting of the great plot that should make thee Pharaoh。 And I
  too camethou dost rememberand again thou didst put me away when I
  spake to thee in parables; as something of little worthas a thing
  too small to claim a moment's weighty thought。 And; knowing t