第 30 节
作者:人生几何      更新:2022-07-08 12:26      字数:9322
  I thought of my aged father; Amenemhat。 Yes; the vision of him flashed
  into my mind; as he would be; when they came to tell him his son's
  shame and the ruin of all his hopes。 I thought of that patriot priest;
  my uncle Sepa; waiting the long night through for the signal which
  never came。 Ah; and another thought followed swift! How would it go
  with them? I was not the only traitor。 I; too; had been betrayed。 By
  whom? By yonder Paulus; perchance。 If it were Paulus; he knew but
  little of those who conspired with me。 But the secret lists had been
  in my robe。 O Osiris! they were gone! and the fate of Paulus would be
  the fate of all the patriots in Egypt。 And at this thought my mind
  gave way。 I sank and swooned even where I stood。
  My sense came back to me; and the lengthening shadows told me that it
  was afternoon。 I staggered to my feet; the corpse of Paulus was still
  there; keeping its awful watch above me。 I ran desperately to the
  door。 It was barred; and without I heard the tramp of sentinels。 As I
  stood they challenged and grounded their spears。 Then the bolts were
  shot back; the door opened; and radiant; clad in royal attire; came
  the conquering Cleopatra。 She came alone; and the door was shut behind
  her。 I stood like one distraught; but she swept on till she was face
  to face with me。
  〃Greeting; Harmachis;〃 she said; smiling sweetly。 〃So; my messenger
  has found thee!〃 and she pointed to the corpse of Paulus。 〃Pah! he has
  an ugly look。 Ho! guards!〃
  The door was opened; and two armed Gauls stepped across the threshold。
  〃Take away this carrion;〃 said Cleopatra; 〃and fling it to the kites。
  Stay; draw that dagger from his traitor breast。〃 The men bowed low;
  and the knife; rusted red with blood; was dragged from the heart of
  Paulus and laid upon the table。 Then they seized him by the head and
  body and staggered thence; and I heard their heavy footfalls as they
  bore him down the stairs。
  〃Methinks; Harmachis; thou art in an evil case;〃 she said; when the
  sound of the footfalls had died away。 〃How strangely the wheel of
  Fortune turns! But for that traitor;〃 and she nodded towards the door
  through which the corpse of Paulus had been carried; 〃I should now be
  as ill a thing to look on as he is; and the red rust on yonder knife
  would have been gathered from /my/ heart。〃
  So it was Paulus who had betrayed me。
  〃Ay;〃 she went on; 〃and when thou camest to me last night; I /knew/
  that thou camest to slay。 When; time upon time; thou didst place thy
  hand within thy robe; I knew that it grasped a dagger hilt; and that
  thou wast gathering thy courage to the deed which thou didst little
  love to do。 Oh! it was a strange wild hour; well worth the living; and
  I wondered greatly; from moment to moment; which of us twain would
  conquer; as we matched guile with guile and force to force!
  〃Yea; Harmachis; the guards tramp before thy door; but be not
  deceived。 Did I not know that I hold thee to me by bonds more strong
  than prison chainsdid I not know that I am hedged from ill at thy
  hands by a fence of honour harder for thee to pass than all the spears
  of all my legions; thou hadst been dead ere now; Harmachis。 See; here
  is thy knife;〃 and she handed me the dagger; 〃now slay me if thou
  canst;〃 and she drew near; tore open the bosom of her robe; and stood
  waiting with calm eyes。
  〃Thou canst not slay me;〃 she went on; 〃for there are things; as I
  know well; that no manno man such as thou artmay do and live: and
  this is the chief of themto slay the woman who is all his own。 Nay;
  stay thy hand! Turn not that dagger against thy breast; for if thou
  mayst not slay me; by how much more mayst thou not slay thyself; O
  thou forsworn Priest of Isis! Art thou; then; so eager to face that
  outraged Majesty in Amenti? With what eyes; thinkest thou; will the
  Heavenly Mother look upon Her son; who; shamed in all things and false
  to his most sacred vow; comes to greet Her; his life…blood on his
  hands? Where; then; will be the space for thy atonement?if; indeed;
  thou mayest atone!〃
  Then I could bear no more; for my heart was broken。 Alas! it was too
  trueI dared not die! I was come to such a pass that I did not even
  dare to die! I flung myself upon the couch and weptwept tears of
  blood and anguish。
  But Cleopatra came to me; and; seating herself beside me; she strove
  to comfort me; throwing her arms about my neck。
  〃Nay; love; look up;〃 she said; 〃all is not lost for thee; nor am I
  angered against thee。 We did play a mighty game; but; as I warned
  thee; I matched my woman's magic against thine; and I have conquered。
  But I will be open with thee。 Both as Queen and woman thou hast my
  pityay; and more; nor do I love to see thee plunged in sorrow。 It
  was well and right that thou shouldst strive to win back that throne
  my fathers seized; and the ancient liberty of Egypt。 Myself as lawful
  Queen had done the same; nor shrunk from the deed of darkness to which
  I was sworn。 Therein; then; thou hast my sympathy; that ever goes out
  to what is great and bold。 It is well also that thou shouldst grieve
  over the greatness of thy fall。 Therein; then; as womanas loving
  womanthou hast my sympathy。 Nor is all lost。 Thy plan was foolish
  for; as I hold; Egypt could never have stood alonefor though thou
  hadst won the crown and countryas without a doubt thou must have
  doneyet there was the Roman to be reckoned with。 And for thy hope
  learn this: I am little known。 There is no heart in this wide land
  that beats with a truer love for ancient Khem than does this heart of
  minenay; not thine own; Harmachis。 Yet I have been heavily shackled
  heretoforefor wars; rebellions; envies; plots; have hemmed me in on
  every side; so that I might not serve my people as I would。 But thou;
  Harmachis; shalt show me how。 Thou shalt be my counsellor and my love。
  Is it a little thing; Harmachis; to have won the heart of Cleopatra;
  that heartfie on thee!that thou wouldst have stilled? Yes; /thou/
  shalt unite me to my people and we will reign together; thus linking
  in one the new kingdom and the old and the new thought and the old。 So
  do all things work for gooday; for the very best: and thus; by
  another and a gentler road; thou shalt climb to Pharaoh's throne。
  〃See thou this; Harmachis: thy treachery shall be cloaked about as
  much as may be。 Was it; then; thy fault that a Roman knave betrayed
  thy plans? that; thereon; thou wast drugged; thy secret papers stolen
  and their key guessed? Will it; then; be a blame to thee; the great
  plot being broken and those who built it scattered; that thou; still
  faithful to thy trust; didst serve thee of such means as Nature gave
  thee; and win the heart of Egypt's Queen; that; through her gentle
  love; thou mightest yet attain thy ends and spread thy wings of power
  across the land of Nile? Am I an ill…counsellor; thinkest thou;
  Harmachis?〃
  I lifted my head; and a ray of hope crept into the darkness of my
  heart; for when men fall they grasp at feathers。 Then; I spoke for the
  first time:
  〃And those with methose who trusted mewhat of them?〃
  〃Ay;〃 she answered; 〃Amenemhat; thy father; the aged Priest of
  Abouthis; and Sepa; thy uncle; that fiery patriot; whose great heart
  is hid beneath so common a shell of form; and〃
  I thought she would have said Charmion; but she named her not。
  〃And many othersoh; I know them all!〃
  〃Ay!〃 I said; 〃what of them?〃
  〃Hear now; Harmachis;〃 she answered; rising and placing her hand upon
  my arm; 〃for thy sake I will show mercy to them。 I will do no more
  than must be done。 I swear by my throne and by all the Gods of Egypt
  that not one hair of thy aged father's head shall be harmed by me;
  and; if it be not too late; I will also spare thy uncle Sepa; ay; and
  the others。 I will not do as did my forefather; Epiphanes; who; when
  the Egyptians rose against him; dragged Athinis; Pausiras; Chesuphus;
  and Irobasthus; bound to his chariotnot as Achilles dragged Hector;
  but yet livinground the city walls。 I will spare them all; save the
  Hebrews; if there be any Hebrews; for the Jews I hate。〃
  〃There are no Hebrews;〃 I said。
  〃It is well;〃 she said; 〃for no Hebrew will I ever spare。 Am I then;
  indeed; so cruel a woman as they say? In thy list; Harmachis; were
  many doomed to die; and I have but taken the life of one Roman knave;
  a double traitor; for he betrayed both me and thee。 Art thou not
  overwhelmed; Harmachis; with the weight of mercy which I give thee;
  becausesuch are a woman's reasonsthou pleasest me; Harmachis? Nay;
  by Serapis!〃 she added with a little laugh; 〃I'll change my mind; I
  will not give thee so much for nothing。 Thou shalt buy it from me; and
  the price shall be a heavy oneit shall be a kiss; Harmachis。〃
  〃Nay;〃 I said; turning from that fair temptress; 〃the price is too
  heavy; I kiss no more。〃
  〃Bethink thee;〃 she answered; with a heavy frown。 〃Bethink thee and
  choose。 I am but a