第 7 节
作者:人生几何      更新:2022-07-08 12:26      字数:9320
  Then I told him all that the old wife had said。
  〃And thou believest; Harmachis; my son?〃
  〃Nay;〃 I answered; 〃how should I believe such tales? Surely she is
  mad。 All the people know her for mad。〃
  Now for the first time he looked towards me; who was standing in the
  shadow。
  〃My son! my son!〃 he cried; 〃thou art wrong。 She is not mad。 The woman
  spoke the truth; she spoke not of herself; but of the voice within her
  that cannot lie。 For this Atoua is a prophetess and holy。 Now learn
  thou the destiny that the Gods of Egypt have given to thee to fulfil;
  and woe be unto thee if by any weakness thou dost fail therein!
  Listen: thou art no stranger adopted into my house and the worship of
  the Temple; thou art my very son; saved to me by this same woman。 But;
  Harmachis; thou art more than this; for in thee and me alone yet flows
  the Imperial blood of Egypt。 Thou and I alone of men alive are
  descended; without break or flaw; from that Pharaoh Nekt…nebf whom
  Ochus the Persian drove from Egypt。 The Persian came and the Persian
  went; and after the Persian came the Macedonian; and now for nigh upon
  three hundred years the Lagid? have usurped the double crown; defiling
  the land of Khem and corrupting the worship of its Gods。 And mark thou
  this: but now; two weeks since; Ptolemy Neus Dionysus; Ptolemy Aulêtes
  the Piper; who would have slain thee; is dead; and but now hath the
  Eunuch Pothinus; that very eunuch who came hither; years ago; to cut
  thee off; set at naught the will of his master; the dead Aulêtes; and
  placed the boy Ptolemy upon the throne。 And therefore his sister
  Cleopatra; that fierce and beautiful girl; has fled into Syria; and
  there; if I err not; she will gather her armies and make war upon her
  brother Ptolemy: for by her father's will she was left joint…sovereign
  with him。 And; meanwhile; mark thou this; my son: the Roman eagle
  hangs on high; waiting with ready talons till such time as he may fall
  upon the fat wether Egypt and rend him。 And mark again: the people of
  Egypt are weary of the foreign yoke; they hate the memory of the
  Persians; and they are sick at heart of being named 〃Men of Macedonia〃
  in the markets of Alexandria。 The whole land mutters and murmurs
  beneath the yoke of the Greek and the shadow of the Roman。
  〃Have we not been oppressed? Have not our children been butchered and
  our gains wrung from us to fill the bottomless greed and lust of the
  Lagid?? Have not the temples been forsaken?ay; have not the
  majesties of the Eternal Gods been set at naught by these Grecian
  babblers; who have dared to meddle with the immortal truths; and name
  the Most High by another nameby the name of Serapisconfounding the
  substance of the Invisible? Does not Egypt cry aloud for freedom?and
  shall she cry in vain? Nay; nay; for thou; my son; art the appointed
  way of deliverance。 To thee; being sunk in eld; I have decreed my
  rights。 Already thy name is whispered in many a sanctuary; from Abu to
  Athu; already priests and people swear allegiance; even by the sacred
  symbols; unto him who shall be declared to them。 Still; the time is
  not yet; thou art too green a sapling to bear the weight of such a
  storm。 But to…day thou wast tried and found wanting。
  〃He who would serve the Gods; Harmachis; must put aside the failings
  of the flesh。 Taunts must not move him; nor any lusts of man。 Thine is
  a high mission; but this thou must learn。 If thou learn it not; thou
  shalt fail therein; and then; my curse be on thee! and the curse of
  Egypt; and the curse of Egypt's broken Gods! For know thou this; that
  even the Gods; who are immortal; may; in the interwoven scheme of
  things; lean upon the man who is their instrument; as a warrior on his
  sword。 And woe be to the sword that snaps in the hour of battle; for
  it shall be thrown aside to rust or perchance be melted with fire!
  Therefore; make thy heart pure and high and strong; for thine is no
  common lot; and thine no mortal meed。 Triumph; Harmachis; and in glory
  thou shalt goin glory here and hereafter! Fail; and woewoe be on
  thee!〃
  He paused and bowed his head; and then went on:
  〃Of these matters thou shalt hear more hereafter。 Meanwhile; thou hast
  much to learn。 To…morrow I will give thee letters; and thou shalt
  journey down the Nile; past white…walled Memphis to Annu。 There thou
  shalt sojourn certain years; and learn more of our ancient wisdom
  beneath the shadow of those secret pyramids of which thou; too; art
  the Hereditary High Priest that is to be。 And meanwhile; I will sit
  here and watch; for my hour is not yet; and; by the help of the Gods;
  spin the web of Death wherein thou shalt catch and hold the wasp of
  Macedonia。
  〃Come hither; my son; come hither and kiss me on the brow; for thou
  art my hope; and all the hope of Egypt。 Be but true; soar to the eagle
  crest of destiny; and thou shalt be glorious here and hereafter。 Be
  false; fail; and I will spit upon thee; and thou shalt be accursed;
  and thy soul shall remain in bondage till that hour when; in the slow
  flight of time; the evil shall once more grow to good and Egypt shall
  again be free。〃
  I drew near; trembling; and kissed him on the brow。 〃May all these
  things come upon me; and more;〃 I said; 〃if I fail thee; my father!〃
  〃Nay!〃 he cried; 〃not me; not me; but rather those whose will I do。
  And now go; my son; and ponder in thy heart; and in thy secret heart
  digest my words; mark what thou shalt see; and gather up the dew of
  wisdom; making thee ready for the battle。 Fear not for thyself; thou
  art protected from all ill。 No harm may touch thee from without;
  thyself alone can be thine own enemy。 I have said。〃
  Then I went forth with a full heart。 The night was very still; and
  none were stirring in the temple courts。 I hurried through them; and
  reached the entrance to the pylon that is at the outer gate。 Then;
  seeking solitude; and; as it were; to draw near to heaven; I climbed
  the pylon's two hundred steps; until at length I reached the massive
  roof。 Here I leaned my breast against the parapet; and looked forth。
  As I looked; the red edge of the full moon floated up over the Arabian
  hills; and her rays fell upon the pylon where I stood and the temple
  walls beyond; lighting the visages of the carven Gods。 Then the cold
  light struck the stretch of well…tilled lands; now whitening to the
  harvest; and as the heavenly lamp of Isis passed up to the sky; her
  rays crept slowly down to the valley; where Sihor; father of the land
  of Khem; rolls on toward the sea。
  Now the bright beams kissed the water that smiled an answer back; and
  now mountain and valley; river; temple; town; and plain were flooded
  with white light; for Mother Isis was arisen; and threw her gleaming
  robe across the bosom of the earth。 It was beautiful; with the beauty
  of a dream; and solemn as the hour after death。 Mightily; indeed; the
  temples towered up against the face of night。 Never had they seemed so
  grand to me as in that hourthose eternal shrines; before whose walls
  Time himself shall wither。 And it was to be mine to rule this moonlit
  land; mine to preserve those sacred shrines; and cherish the honour of
  their Gods; mine to cast out the Ptolemy and free Egypt from the
  foreign yoke! In my veins ran the blood of those great Kings who await
  the day of Resurrection; sleeping in the tombs of the valley of
  Thebes。 My spirit swelled within me as I dreamed upon this glorious
  destiny; I closed my hands; and there; upon the pylon; I prayed as I
  had never prayed before to the Godhead; who is called by many names;
  and in many forms made manifest。
  〃O Amen;〃 I prayed; 〃God of Gods; who hast been from the beginning;
  Lord of Truth; who art; and of whom all are; who givest out thy
  Godhead and gatherest it up again; in the circle of whom the Divine
  ones move and are; who wast from all time the Self…begot; and who
  shalt be till timehearken unto me。'*'
  '*' For a somewhat similar definition of the Godhead see the funeral
  papyrus of Nesikhonsu; a Princess of the Twenty…first Dynasty。
  Editor。
  〃O AmenOsiris; the sacrifice by whom we are justified; Lord of the
  Region of the Winds; Ruler of the Ages; Dweller in the West; the
  Supreme in Amenti; hearken unto me。
  〃O Isis; great Mother Goddess; mother of the Horusmysterious Mother;
  Sister; Spouse; hearken unto me。 If; indeed; I am the chosen of the
  Gods to carry out the purpose of the Gods; let a sign be given me;
  even now; to seal my life to the life above。 Stretch out your arms
  towards me; O ye Gods; and uncover the glory of your countenance。
  Hear! ah; hear me!〃 And I cast myself upon my knees and lifted up my
  eyes to heaven。
  And as I knelt; a cloud grew upon the face of the moon covering it up;
  so that the night became dark; and the silence deepened all around
  even the dogs far below in the city ceased to howl; while the silence
  grew and grew till it was heavy as death。 I felt my spirit l