第 73 节
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  relations in a way that I could neither foresee nor avoid;
  though of late I have had apprehensions that it might come to
  this。  You vex and disturb me by such words of regret。'
  'Not more than you vex and disturb me。  But you cannot hate
  the man who loves you so devotedly?'
  'I have said before I don't hate you。  I repeat that I am
  interested in your family and its associations because of its
  complete contrast with my own。'  She might have added; 'And I
  am additionally interested just now because my uncle has
  forbidden me to be。'
  'But you don't care enough for me personally to save my
  happiness。'
  Paula hesitated; from the moment De Stancy confronted her she
  had felt that this nocturnal conversation was to be a grave
  business。  The cathedral clock struck three。  'I have thought
  once or twice;' she said with a naivete unusual in her; 'that
  if I could be sure of giving peace and joy to your mind by
  becoming your wife; I ought to endeavour to do so and make the
  best of itmerely as a charity。  But I believe that feeling
  is a mistake:  your discontent is constitutional; and would go
  on just the same whether I accepted you or no。  My refusal of
  you is purely an imaginary grievance。'
  'Not if I think otherwise。'
  'O no;' she murmured; with a sense that the place was very
  lonely and silent。  'If you think it otherwise; I suppose it
  is otherwise。'
  'My darling; my Paula!' he said; seizing her hand。  'Do
  promise me something。  You must indeed!'
  'Captain De Stancy!' she said; trembling and turning away。
  'Captain De Stancy!'  She tried to withdraw her fingers; then
  faced him; exclaiming in a firm voice a third time; 'Captain
  De Stancy! let go my hand; for I tell you I will not marry
  you!'
  'Good God!' he cried; dropping her hand。  'What have I driven
  you to say in your anger!  Retract itO; retract it!'
  'Don't urge me further; as you value my good opinion!'
  'To lose you now; is to lose you for ever。  Come; please
  answer!'
  'I won't be compelled!' she interrupted with vehemence。  'I am
  resolved not to be yoursnot to give you an answer to…night!
  Never; never will I be reasoned out of my intention; and I say
  I won't answer you to…night!  I should never have let you be
  so much with me but for pity of you; and now it is come to
  this!'
  She had sunk into a chair; and now leaned upon her hand; and
  buried her face in her handkerchief。  He had never caused her
  any such agitation as this before。
  'You stab me with your words;' continued De Stancy。  'The
  experience I have had with you is without parallel; Paula。  It
  seems like a distracting dream。'
  'I won't be hurried by anybody!'
  'That may mean anything;' he said; with a perplexed;
  passionate air。  'Well; mine is a fallen family; and we must
  abide caprices。  Would to Heaven it were extinguished!'
  'What was extinguished?' she murmured。
  'The De Stancys。  Here am I; a homeless wanderer; living on my
  pay; in the next room lies she; my sister; a poor little
  fragile feverish invalid with no social positionand hardly a
  friend。  We two represent the De Stancy line; and I wish we
  were behind the iron door of our old vault at Sleeping…Green。
  It can be seen by looking at us and our circumstances that we
  cry for the earth and oblivion!'
  'Captain De Stancy; it is not like that; I assure you;'
  sympathized Paula with damp eyelashes。  'I love Charlotte too
  dearly for you to talk like that; indeed。  I don't want to
  marry you exactly:  and yet I cannot bring myself to say I
  permanently reject you; because I remember you are Charlotte's
  brother; and do not wish to be the cause of any morbid
  feelings in you which would ruin your future prospects。'
  'My dear life; what is it you doubt in me?  Your earnestness
  not to do me harm makes it all the harder for me to think of
  never being more than a friend。'
  'Well; I have not positively refused!' she exclaimed; in mixed
  tones of pity and distress。  'Let me think it over a little
  while。  It is not generous to urge so strongly before I can
  collect my thoughts; and at this midnight time!'
  'Darling; forgive it!There; I'll say no more。'
  He then offered to sit up in her place for the remainder of
  the night; but Paula declined; assuring him that she meant to
  stay only another half…hour; after which nobody would be
  necessary。
  He had already crossed the landing to ascend to his room; when
  she stepped after him; and asked if he had received his
  telegram。
  'No;' said De Stancy。  'Nor have I heard of one。'
  Paula explained that it was put in his room; that he might see
  it the moment he came in。
  'It matters very little;' he replied; 'since I shall see it
  now。  Good…night; dearest:  good…night!' he added tenderly。
  She gravely shook her head。  'It is not for you to express
  yourself like that;' she answered。  'Good…night; Captain De
  Stancy。'
  He went up the stairs to the second floor; and Paula returned
  to the sitting…room。  Having left a light burning De Stancy
  proceeded to look for the telegram; and found it on the
  carpet; where it had been swept from the table。  When he had
  opened the sheet a sudden solemnity overspread his face。  He
  sat down; rested his elbow on the table; and his forehead on
  his hands。
  Captain De Stancy did not remain thus long。  Rising he went
  softly downstairs。  The grey morning had by this time crept
  into the hotel; rendering a light no longer necessary。  The
  old clock on the landing was within a few minutes of four; and
  the birds were hopping up and down their cages; and whetting
  their bills。  He tapped at the sitting…room; and she came
  instantly。
  'But I told you it was not necessary' she began。
  'Yes; but the telegram;' he said hurriedly。  'I wanted to let
  you know first thatit is very serious。  Paulamy father is
  dead!  He died suddenly yesterday; and I must go at once。 。 。
  。  About Charlotteand how to let her know'
  'She must not be told yet;' said Paula。 。 。 。  'Sir William
  dead!'
  'You think we had better not tell her just yet?' said De
  Stancy anxiously。  'That's what I want to consult you about;
  if youdon't mind my intruding。'
  'Certainly I don't;' she said。
  They continued the discussion for some time; and it was
  decided that Charlotte should not be informed of what had
  happened till the doctor had been consulted; Paula promising
  to account for her brother's departure。
  De Stancy then prepared to leave for England by the first
  morning train; and roused the night…porter; which functionary;
  having packed off Abner Power; was discovered asleep on the
  sofa of the landlord's parlour。  At half…past five Paula; who
  in the interim had been pensively sitting with her hand to her
  chin; quite forgetting that she had meant to go to bed; heard
  wheels without; and looked from the window。  A fly had been
  brought round; and one of the hotel servants was in the act of
  putting up a portmanteau with De Stancy's initials upon it。  A
  minute afterwards the captain came to her door。
  'I thought you had not gone to bed; after all。'
  'I was anxious to see you off;' said she; 'since neither of
  the others is awake; and you wished me not to rouse them。'
  'Quite right; you are very good;' and lowering his voice:
  'Paula; it is a sad and solemn time with me。  Will you grant
  me one wordnot on our last sad subject; but on the previous
  onebefore I part with you to go and bury my father?'
  'Certainly;' she said; in gentle accents。
  'Then have you thought over my position?  Will you at last
  have pity upon my loneliness by becoming my wife?'
  Paula sighed deeply; and said; 'Yes。'
  'Your hand upon it。'
  She gave him her hand:  he held it a few moments; then raised
  it to his lips; and was gone。
  When Mrs。 Goodman rose she was informed of Sir William's
  death; and of his son's departure。
  'Then the captain is now Sir William De Stancy!' she
  exclaimed。  'Really; Paula; since you would be Lady De Stancy
  by marrying him; I almost think'
  'Hush; aunt!'
  'Well; what are you writing there?'
  'Only entering in my diary that I accepted him this morning
  for pity's sake; in spite of Uncle Abner。  They'll say it was
  for the title; but knowing it was not I don't care。'
  XI。
  On the evening of the fourth day after the parting between
  Paula and De Stancy at Amiens; when it was quite dark in the
  Markton highway; except in so far as the shades were broken by
  the faint lights from the adjacent town; a young man knocked
  softly at the door of Myrtle Villa; and asked if Captain De
  Stancy had arrived from abroad。  He was answered in the
  affirmative; and in a few moments the captain himself came
  from an adjoining room。
  Seeing that his visitor was Dare; from whom; as will be
  remembered; he had parted at Carlsruhe in no very satisfied
  mood; De Stancy did not ask him into the house; but putting on
  his hat went out with the youth into the public road。  Here
  they conversed as they walked up and down; Dare beginning by
  alluding to the death of Sir William; the suddenness of which
  he feared would delay Captain De Stancy's overtures for the
  hand of Miss Power。
  'No;' said De Stancy moodily。  'On the contrary; it has
  precipitated matters。'
  'She has accepted you; captain?'
  'We are engaged to be